On the weirdest thing a journalist has said to her: “‘You’re ugly and fat, and that is so refreshing to us.’ I’m like, ‘What are you saying to me, sir?’ “Well, we’re used to skinny people, and you’re so ugly and refreshing.’ That’s not a question, sir.”
I don’t know if there is a theme for this week but today/ this week has had it’s one them for me. It’s been really hot in the mornings that and a combination of my lover being away have meant that I’ve been waking up in the early hours of the morning and not being able to go back to sleep. However, i’ve turned it into a good thing, when i find my self stiring, I’ve spent the last few days watching the sun rise, making my self some tea or fruit water and just being. The last few days i’ve been on a few journeys literally on boats to see friends and figuratively while meditating in a sensory deprivation tank and with the help of some other unmentionable substances. I don’t normally do these kinds of things but in a weird way I’ve been learning more about who I am and what being at peace means to me. I’ve spent a lot of time looking inwards instead of out and what i’m learning is that with every year who I am shifts and that what I thought I knew about myself was the tip of the iceberg. If there is one thing I have always wanted is to never stop growing, to me stagnancy is almost paramount to death , that’s a bit dramatic but I guess growth as a person , as a young woman and as a part of this world is really important to me. I am learning that to know life is to know nothing absolutely for sure. I know what I would like to be as a person towards others, kind , considerate, caring and compassionate but I had never thought about who I would like to be for myself until recently. I guess I’m just checking in to say that I’m learning that to live my life is to embark on the biggest journey I will ever be on and that my new favourite travelling companion is myself.
I’ll message you next week Lioness.
Love and Light, P.
This is such a powerful submission, your words are so poignant and alive. The whole time i read your caption i could visualize these things in my head. The pictures truly intensify the whole sensation to me. I hope you, and your new favourite traveling companion remain in tune and full of love and gratitude for all these amazing life lessons.